We’ve been gone from the ranch for about a week now. We left Colorado and have traveled through Arizona, New Mexico, a little of Utah, Nevada, and California. We have spent some wonderful time with our son Jeremy, his wife Jessica and their beautiful baby daughter. As I type this, John, Jordan and Jared are downstairs packing up the camper with all of our things and all of the things that Jordan is taking home from his time in California.
And now, we are heading out to go back home to the ranch. I have to admit that being away from it has been good for all of us. Bottom line, there is alot of work there and of course, we are working hard and struggling to make things work there….much like many other families in various situations around the country. With so much having gone on in the past couple of years, I think I’ve developed some bad habits…..one of the worst is the habit of not being present in the moment. It seems like I always have something on my mind….some stress, some situation, some project, some relations…SOMETHING…..but always there is something that is distracting me from the precious moment in which I find myself. I miss alot when I do that. When I do that, it’s like I never really embrace anything but instead, I’m left just trying to corral things that are constantly swirling in my head.
Even before I became ill and ended up in the ER and then in the hospital for five days, John and I had been talking about this bad habit that we have both let creep into our lives and yes, even affect our family life. SO this trip was kind of line in the sand, a renewal, a new starting line to get back to some things that we know are important. There is nothing like being around a baby to help with that….especially with the habit of staying in the moment.
So, for the past few days we have spent time with Emma, our precious six month old granddaughter who definitely lives in the moment and by being around her, I have been reminded of how precious each moment is and how many gifts I am given each and every day. As I held her, I cherished the gift of having the strength to hold her because three weeks ago, I did not have that strength. As I climbed the stairs to see her, I was thankful that I could get up the stairs, because three weeks ago, I needed alot of help. As I watched her play, I found myself taking joy in the simple things that she did and the facial expressions that she gave me. I was reminded of living in the moment.
Yes, I know that a wise woman plans for the future. However, Scripture also talks about not taking thought for tomorrow and not being anxious….things I needed to be reminded of after the events and challenges of the past two years. So, as we head home…..all four of us have been talking about staying present in the moment.
I woke up a bit anxious this morning. It’s been three weeks since I’ve really put in a good day’s work due to being ill and of course, as we were heading home today, I woke up feeling a bit anxious and overwhelmed. I went downstairs before anyone else was up and visited facebook and received an update on a sweet family that had unexpectedly and tragically lost their 20 month old son and I was again reminded….I need to stay present in the moment…..I need to not look to the right or to the left….I need to NOT be doubleminded. Instead, I need to be HERE…..NOW……and to treasure each and every gift the Father has given to me. Then I started searching for quotes and for scripture on discouragement. Here is one of each.
Nearly every man who develops an idea works it up to the point where it looks impossible, and then he gets discouraged. That’s not the place to become discouraged. – Thomas Edison
Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;
Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
Israel, put your hope in the Lord,
for with the Lord is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.
Because I have been forgiven, I can with reverence, serve Him, in this moment…..and the next…..and the next…